Did I Manifest this Pain in My A$$?

It's called sciatica...and the best treatment "depends on what is irritating the nerve"...

Straight from the portion of my life most likely to resemble "Full House" (remember that show?) in 2010 when I had to tell my widowed brother-in-law* that our co-owned house was too full for the next chapter of my life, I woke up to a whole onslaught of life irritations that I'd been numbing. Having faced my fears, stood up for my own needs, and taken steps to manifest a new reality, all I manifested was sciatica!

It has been 18 months since we put the house on the market and while it hasn't sold, I did manifest the home of my dreams ---"a home that feels like home." Originally, I thought that meant selling my current house and getting a new house. The universe has such bigger plans for me! Now I know that my home in my body is shaped by my boundaries. Now I know that my home as a place for loving relationships is among soul friends. Now I know that my home as sanctuary for my MErriage is within me. I have come home to my multidimensional Self. It feels like home.

So why has my sciatica returned? Just as Chris predicted in the scopes, Monday gave me plenty of opportunities to see what is NOT working but recognize that I LOVE myself and don't want to feel irritated beyond it's showing me what is NOT working. When my realtor called today the charlie horse in my a$$ just about knocked me over. All day long I was able to see irritants that I've allowed to bum me out, make me angry, or be a victim in the past. Today though, I was amazed at how easily I could see the temporal nature of any issue, feel positive even while in pain, and simply shake my head instead of throw up my arms in desperation. The sciatica is here to show me that I've come a long way in my growth and learning, and now it is time to come home to myself on an even deeper level.

Thank you sciatica for helping me see what is NOT working. I am ready to lightcast Loving what is...loving myself in the moment...valuing myself...OWNING my own VALUE. I know once I OWN that, everything in my material reality will reflect that and I will have manifested much more than a house to live in.

The best treatment for sciatica is just to stop feeling irritated! :)

*technically he is my deceased sister's fiance as she died before they married, but how hard is that for the reader to follow?

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Comment by Mara on February 24, 2012 at 10:51pm: "I move into my greater good. My good is everywhere. I am safe and secure."

Stephanie~ I loved the title (((smiling))) and always love your perspectives... this was great!!! :)

The sciatica is here to show me that I've come a long way in my growth and learning, and now it is time to come home to myself on an even deeper level.

Comment by iBelong\Aquarius on February 22, 2012 at 1:47pm: Thanks for the love! I am doing MUCH better today. I have used the Louise Hay affirmation (even when through gritted teeth) and welcomed the pain as a reminder to recognize my value in the moment! I am finding humor in it as I explain to ppl why I'm moving slow or not at all instead of victimizing myself. I am accepting compassionate loving care, but not pity or disempowerment. It's all good. My good is everywhere...I am safe and secure. :)

Comment by iGiveiRecieve\Libra on February 22, 2012 at 8:38am: Hello Stephanie, hoping your pains go away. Mary, I appreciate the words as I could use those right about now as well. Love Lisa

Comment by vahso giddy on February 21, 2012 at 5:02pm: and if all that doesn't help, get someone to jab their elbow, in the center of your Glut to release that piriformis muscle of yours and when I say release, I mean it. Might end jumping 2ft in the air. haha! Hope you feel better :)

Comment by iDecide\Capricorn on February 21, 2012 at 9:54am: xoxoxo!!!

Comment by Jakeb Arturio Braden on February 21, 2012 at 4:52am: well done for your awarenss the inspiration in sharing it with us! It seems to me that you have a spot on awareness of it which is great! I salute you! You're awesome!

Comment by iBelong\Aquarius on February 21, 2012 at 2:26am: Clearly I need the sleep...:O

Comment by iBelong\Aquarius on February 21, 2012 at 2:25am: Oh hello there, Bernie, I see you we were writing at the same time! It's fun to be in the garden space-time with you when you who is across the world. Armed with the love and support of this garden and my new meditation, I am going to attempt to go back to bed for a few hours sleep! LOVE YOU!!!

Comment by iBelong\Aquarius on February 21, 2012 at 2:21am: So helpful Mary, thank you!!! I will do the meditation and the pain will surely remind me to do it! It also reminded my of a poem (I don't recall if my step-mum wrote it or if she just gave it to me) I love:

My home is here, I feel secure.

This place is now a temple pure

Where I can speak my mind

and leave all pain and fear behind.

Comment by iAm\Aries on February 21, 2012 at 2:20am: Oh Steph I feel your pain I had sciatica when I was 24 after a fall. Seems as though for you now it has emerged as a reminder not to slip back into old negative habits and to be true to yourself so that you can have balance.

Love you xoxo